Wednesday, September 8, 2010
@ 5:34 AM
It was so stupid of me to screw everything up.. I wanted you so badly and i was desperate... I dont know what to say honestly. I know the world pretty much hates me and stuffs, But i will try all means to win you back.. I never knew, How important you are, Till i was prove. Yes i over reacted at times, Yes i was desperate. I'm sorry, I know you mind those little details. I love you so very much words.. Just dont quite fit in. I know your afraid of what the world says, Dont worry... Just rest on me i'll be there and we can ignore the world.. Heh who am i kidding... I love you so badly.. Your feelings are fading by the second.. I dont know who to turn to.. God? He doesnt really help. I've tried approaching your mother, She simply ignored me.. What's a man to do.. Please.. Just come back to me.. you mean everything to me...
@ 5:34 AM
It was so stupid of me to screw everything up.. I wanted you so badly and i was desperate... I dont know what to say honestly. I know the world pretty much hates me and stuffs, But i will try all means to win you back.. I never knew, How important you are, Till i was prove. Yes i over reacted at times, Yes i was desperate. I'm sorry, I know you mind those little details. I love you so very much words.. Just dont quite fit in. I know your afraid of what the world says, Dont worry... Just rest on me i'll be there and we can ignore the world.. Heh who am i kidding... I love you so badly.. Your feelings are fading by the second.. I dont know who to turn to.. God? He doesnt really help. I've tried approaching your mother, She simply ignored me.. What's a man to do.. Please.. Just come back to me.. you mean everything to me...
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
@ 2:48 PM
No one has to get caught up in this, It's all my fault. good bye everyone, It was fun knowing you, please pretend you never knew me. Nicole, If you ever wake up and happen to come my blog well.. This is for you Remember how we started out? I was interested in you too back then, but i didnt say a word, I later got up the courage to talk to you and get to know you, back then i had a special feeling like no other, I felt i knew you for ages, I felt the need to protect you and keep you warm in my arms. You and i started to talk and stuffs and finally got out. Remember how you gave me heart shapes whenever i pass your class? To be honest, It makes me smile whenever i walk away. You didnt know how little things you do affects me in the greatest ways ever. Maybe you loved me and lost it, Maybe it was a moment of affliction for you. I wouldn't know, But i do know i love you whole heartedly. How about the time you stayed over my house. The way you and i snuggled. It was great. Everything about you, I love it. I've quarreled with you numerous times, To be honest, Most of it was my fault. But you gave in to me. I'm sorry and thank you. You were the best. You deserve better someone better then me. I was often moody and had to go through lots of shit. Regarding the gang matter. I've been trying to get out of it. But in moments i will be. I wont blame you or anything, I hope you dont blame me for anything too. I love you with all my heart, even though it's bleeding. Every moment with you is a moment i treasure. Good bye. Hope you get well and dont be foolish ever again. I'm not going to give threats anymore... It's time to end this.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
@ 10:23 PM
If only i treated you better, If only i opened up more to you, If only i wasnt so petty. If... Since it's come to this state. I'm going to finish it, You might think i dont love you and i dont intend to convience you anymore, I already have proven i love you. And i'll do one final deed, offer my life. Good bye. I wont meet you in the afterlife, I'll be in hell while your in heaven.
My final words.
@ 8:53 PM
Alright. This is good bye world. I thank thee, for being there for me, and having recognition over my final words. As you know of it; I have lost everything. I lost my brothers, I lost my girl, i lost everything. I'm all alone. My brothers, They all left me. All but one remained. I thank you whole heartedly. With my DnT deadline on 27th August. I was going to not complete in time. I was freaking out and under a great deal of stress due to my personal, Parental and deadline issues. I broke down under stress and i was not aware of my surroundings. My girl, Nicole Quah, believe me of a flirt and a hongster, And tries to prove i'm not loving enough. I guess i wasnt enough. I was thinking, I needed some comfort from her, i wanted her assurance to be there for me. But instead it turned out wrong. She left me. She said she didnt love me. She didnt want me. Now i'm all alone with nothing to lose. The tears keep flowing, It doesnt stop just at then.. To be honest i'm losing my mind. I keep seeing hallucinations. I hear people talking to me. When i look around and i realise i'm all alone. I touch my chest, I feel so comforted... Yet sad that i'm living a life without you. If it's life like this, I rather not have it.. I'm going to do something really drastic.. Because i cant take it no more.. I got it in my face.. You dont love me anymore... I'm trying my best to amend all i can, But i cant do it alone.. But you left and i'm not allowed to clear my sins and i cant get back what i have. I thank you all for everything, Even if you said a single hi.. Thank you for having recognition of me. I thank you sincerely, Good bye, It was a blast and a pleasure knowing you. And those with good times, Even if i'm dead.. I will offer my memories, It's all i can do, See you in the afterlife. I will finish this all, Those that done me wrong in your life and pretend to be unaware, You better run. This is the only warning. I love you Nicole Quah, My words once won you, My action won you back after that, And now nothing is working; I'm going to offer my life. And all this; Would be my final words. Good bye. The weapon is completed, What awaits is blood.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
@ 10:53 PM
It's been a long time since i've posted. Been studying like a diligent student! Doesn't feels like me though, Oh well. Anyway studying and stuffs doesn't have much to post about, The ZombieFarm is rather fun and yeah :D Trying to pick up italian and Tecktonik, I seem to have much trouble with TeckTonik, ANYONE KNOW HOW TO DO THE CONSECUTIVE BUTTERFLY? And yeah, Study study, Going to do the class shirt on Thursday, I might take a photo and post it on the blog :D
Saturday, March 27, 2010
@ 5:54 PM
How do you define black and white when both your eyes are closed?
When we do bad deeds we don't think nor hesitate to do it, Yet why is it when we do good deeds we worry and fret so much?
What makes a good person and a bad person? A good person can do bad deeds and a bad person can do good deed, So how do we find out?
With so much lies and deception in the world, Why bother to find the truth?
Today was a busy day, Celebrated, played dota, reading book.
OH AND TAKLING ABOUT BOOK, I'll be busy reading Warcraft Archives, I wont be blogging much now, Bye all :D
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Jeston Yeo Aka Lancet Lamperouge
30/03/93
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
@ 5:34 AM
It was so stupid of me to screw everything up.. I wanted you so badly and i was desperate... I dont know what to say honestly. I know the world pretty much hates me and stuffs, But i will try all means to win you back.. I never knew, How important you are, Till i was prove. Yes i over reacted at times, Yes i was desperate. I'm sorry, I know you mind those little details. I love you so very much words.. Just dont quite fit in. I know your afraid of what the world says, Dont worry... Just rest on me i'll be there and we can ignore the world.. Heh who am i kidding... I love you so badly.. Your feelings are fading by the second.. I dont know who to turn to.. God? He doesnt really help. I've tried approaching your mother, She simply ignored me.. What's a man to do.. Please.. Just come back to me.. you mean everything to me...
@ 5:34 AM
It was so stupid of me to screw everything up.. I wanted you so badly and i was desperate... I dont know what to say honestly. I know the world pretty much hates me and stuffs, But i will try all means to win you back.. I never knew, How important you are, Till i was prove. Yes i over reacted at times, Yes i was desperate. I'm sorry, I know you mind those little details. I love you so very much words.. Just dont quite fit in. I know your afraid of what the world says, Dont worry... Just rest on me i'll be there and we can ignore the world.. Heh who am i kidding... I love you so badly.. Your feelings are fading by the second.. I dont know who to turn to.. God? He doesnt really help. I've tried approaching your mother, She simply ignored me.. What's a man to do.. Please.. Just come back to me.. you mean everything to me...
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
@ 2:48 PM
No one has to get caught up in this, It's all my fault. good bye everyone, It was fun knowing you, please pretend you never knew me. Nicole, If you ever wake up and happen to come my blog well.. This is for you Remember how we started out? I was interested in you too back then, but i didnt say a word, I later got up the courage to talk to you and get to know you, back then i had a special feeling like no other, I felt i knew you for ages, I felt the need to protect you and keep you warm in my arms. You and i started to talk and stuffs and finally got out. Remember how you gave me heart shapes whenever i pass your class? To be honest, It makes me smile whenever i walk away. You didnt know how little things you do affects me in the greatest ways ever. Maybe you loved me and lost it, Maybe it was a moment of affliction for you. I wouldn't know, But i do know i love you whole heartedly. How about the time you stayed over my house. The way you and i snuggled. It was great. Everything about you, I love it. I've quarreled with you numerous times, To be honest, Most of it was my fault. But you gave in to me. I'm sorry and thank you. You were the best. You deserve better someone better then me. I was often moody and had to go through lots of shit. Regarding the gang matter. I've been trying to get out of it. But in moments i will be. I wont blame you or anything, I hope you dont blame me for anything too. I love you with all my heart, even though it's bleeding. Every moment with you is a moment i treasure. Good bye. Hope you get well and dont be foolish ever again. I'm not going to give threats anymore... It's time to end this.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
@ 10:23 PM
If only i treated you better, If only i opened up more to you, If only i wasnt so petty. If... Since it's come to this state. I'm going to finish it, You might think i dont love you and i dont intend to convience you anymore, I already have proven i love you. And i'll do one final deed, offer my life. Good bye. I wont meet you in the afterlife, I'll be in hell while your in heaven.
My final words.
@ 8:53 PM
Alright. This is good bye world. I thank thee, for being there for me, and having recognition over my final words. As you know of it; I have lost everything. I lost my brothers, I lost my girl, i lost everything. I'm all alone. My brothers, They all left me. All but one remained. I thank you whole heartedly. With my DnT deadline on 27th August. I was going to not complete in time. I was freaking out and under a great deal of stress due to my personal, Parental and deadline issues. I broke down under stress and i was not aware of my surroundings. My girl, Nicole Quah, believe me of a flirt and a hongster, And tries to prove i'm not loving enough. I guess i wasnt enough. I was thinking, I needed some comfort from her, i wanted her assurance to be there for me. But instead it turned out wrong. She left me. She said she didnt love me. She didnt want me. Now i'm all alone with nothing to lose. The tears keep flowing, It doesnt stop just at then.. To be honest i'm losing my mind. I keep seeing hallucinations. I hear people talking to me. When i look around and i realise i'm all alone. I touch my chest, I feel so comforted... Yet sad that i'm living a life without you. If it's life like this, I rather not have it.. I'm going to do something really drastic.. Because i cant take it no more.. I got it in my face.. You dont love me anymore... I'm trying my best to amend all i can, But i cant do it alone.. But you left and i'm not allowed to clear my sins and i cant get back what i have. I thank you all for everything, Even if you said a single hi.. Thank you for having recognition of me. I thank you sincerely, Good bye, It was a blast and a pleasure knowing you. And those with good times, Even if i'm dead.. I will offer my memories, It's all i can do, See you in the afterlife. I will finish this all, Those that done me wrong in your life and pretend to be unaware, You better run. This is the only warning. I love you Nicole Quah, My words once won you, My action won you back after that, And now nothing is working; I'm going to offer my life. And all this; Would be my final words. Good bye. The weapon is completed, What awaits is blood.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
@ 10:53 PM
It's been a long time since i've posted. Been studying like a diligent student! Doesn't feels like me though, Oh well. Anyway studying and stuffs doesn't have much to post about, The ZombieFarm is rather fun and yeah :D Trying to pick up italian and Tecktonik, I seem to have much trouble with TeckTonik, ANYONE KNOW HOW TO DO THE CONSECUTIVE BUTTERFLY? And yeah, Study study, Going to do the class shirt on Thursday, I might take a photo and post it on the blog :D
Saturday, March 27, 2010
@ 5:54 PM
How do you define black and white when both your eyes are closed?
When we do bad deeds we don't think nor hesitate to do it, Yet why is it when we do good deeds we worry and fret so much?
What makes a good person and a bad person? A good person can do bad deeds and a bad person can do good deed, So how do we find out?
With so much lies and deception in the world, Why bother to find the truth?
Today was a busy day, Celebrated, played dota, reading book.
OH AND TAKLING ABOUT BOOK, I'll be busy reading Warcraft Archives, I wont be blogging much now, Bye all :D
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